Breaking Free ;

Wednesday, August 19, 2009 @7:26 AM

Okay, this blog is dead since ages. let's clear some dust here and there.

Alright, a post since a long time, but not a positive one, definitely not something to rejoice about

I got a B3 for chinese

I am crest fallen and just totally dejected and frustrated.
I sort of predicted i would get this grade, not like its a surprise to me, but i just felt that i lost a good chance to get A1, which would be significant on my result slip.

Urgh I am feeling really no good and i dont know what to say. Sort of acted to be a lil happy in class, didnt know if it worked out.

And even if i retake, would it really help? would the momentum still be the same as last time?
I am not sure of the answer, wondering around. I have decided to retake, but i dont think i have the motivation to study that well again.

I wished and prayed to get a distinction.
here's the funny part, the first few that got a distinction that i knew was javier and kai ling. and they said not many got distinction, so i just told myself that theres like maybe one vacancy left for me to fill.

but

I totally forgetten jia wen and li hao was like the best chinese students in class. -.-"

so the truth came out, i didnt get distinction.

If I get like one mark below A2, lets assume i did, I would kill the person who marked my compo.

ok for a lighter side, lets talked about something happier,

humph
......
nope cant think of any. its a very bad day.

And I have to study SOCIAL STUDIES

Whats the point, I write till my hands corrode and i get pathetic marks
and the most stupid thing is, when you see people writing like 1/3 of yours and they get marks like 3 times higher.

URGH I need more time to pick up myself, when its just two days to prelim.

I DONT WANT TO STUDY!!!!!!

♥ I Believe in
Forever love

Wednesday, July 22, 2009 @6:25 AM

For ages this thing inside me has been causing me problems.

You know, on occasions, when i received help from someone, I would like to express my gratitude to them, but this something inside me sorts of make me tongue tied whenever i attempt to say thank you.
Anyone who's reading this might think that this is really ridiculous and stupid.
Yea I find it weird too, but is not like i can control it.
Also I find it hard to approach people and talk to them, although i really want to. I think I look like a real cold blooded animal in front of everyone.

This post really is random.

♥ I Believe in
Forever love

Saturday, July 18, 2009 @7:03 AM

Hello!!!

Alright here's what happened.

For the past few weeks, My body, heart and mind are all spent on preparing myself for prelims and stuff. I really spent time revising. However, the results obviously didnt show it.

Although i am disappointed, crestfallen, BUT I still have to continue working on, Its not like if i am sad, the o lvls wont come to me.

BUT!

No matter how terrific/ Pathetic you're results are, you still need a little break.
therefore from thursday onwards it was

LAN
SOCCER
MOVIE
EIGHTEEN CHEFS
BADMINTON
COMPUTER GAMES
SAKAE SUSHI
SENTOSA!

no studying at all!

Haha it was great, this few days.

A simple smile
A mundane wave
is enough.

♥ I Believe in
Forever love

Wednesday, July 1, 2009 @6:32 AM

TRANSFORMERS 2 : REVENGE OF THE FALLEN

is super FANTASTIC!

ok I know that it is late for me to update at this point of time.

Caught The film at 24th june, There was like SO many bookings all around the island, and we have to settle at SG yishun.

My Favourite Character is actually SIDESWIPE

He is a perfect autobot.

The major scence of him was in Shanghai.

He was assigned to chase down sideways. A silver Audi R8.

After managing to avoid the twins (i think one of them was a ice cream truck or something)
He rampaged on the streets of shanghai

Sideswipe just did a somersault over him, Stab his knife in front of the decepticon and just pull his Sword over the decepticon's body, severing it into two, finishing it off instantly.

He ended of with

"Damn, I'm Good"

Here's a picture of sideswipes

He is a Chevrolet Corvette.

And The part where bumblebee cried was very cute!

♥ I Believe in
Forever love

Wednesday, June 17, 2009 @7:58 AM

Hey yo!!!!!

Today went to the Party World in Yishun Safra and sang Karaokay!!!!
It was totally awesome. I dont really go to K much and today was a fantastic Day. Four hours is just too little!
Alright, I think I Did not sing really well today, at least tnot my usual singing self.
However the really fun part was when we are singing yao gun zen me le when Duncan And i just shout like theres nobody out there.
hope to watch transformers next week!

Photos next time!

You made me realise what a hypocrite really is,
Your actions disgust me,
I am so foolish to have trust you over and over again.

♥ I Believe in
Forever love

Monday, June 1, 2009 @5:20 AM

Today's paper was.. demoralising.

Paper one:
I thought i wrote well for Si han, until jia wen told me i read the question wrongly
I was okay for the compo, but the ending is shit.

Paper two:
Not very good, the compre 2 was okay, the rest was not. simple.

Okay apart from this, i would like to take a breather, but i can't, there's too much work, should i rest or should i work. this is really a hard choice.
Today was a rather relaxing day, hard to find some time out with friends. went to the japanese food court, had baked rice, saw jia wen and suxue.

I just finished my exam, i came back with the mundane job:
People making people unhappy.
I try to make people happy.
In the end nobody happy.

This kinda life sucks, Next time when i find a girlfriend, ill find who is forgiving, vibrant, a smile on the face everyday, wont get angry. I an tired of people getting angry, showing their outrageous emotion in front of me (although is not my fault).

Just one very simple phrase, hit my house with a 1o.1 earthquake.

Sometime i really wish there's someone for me to talk to, to blabber out my problems. i am tired of beinging the listening side. sucking in all the problems, aint releasing any.

♥ I Believe in
Forever love

Thursday, May 28, 2009 @6:11 AM

Maybe I should leave this place when I grow up.
I will migrate to somewhere far far away.

I am sick of this shit, It's not like i hadn't been trying.
I've been trying to use as many sophisticated vocabs on msn or in blogging.
I've been making a notebook to note down all the new words I see.
I've been trying to remind myself to write as slowly as possible.
I tried my best when writing down the note.
Its hard to acheive something that just seem so distant
when your not the best being the best, it does not mean you are bad right?

I think i am just rowing a boat agasint the stream,
One direction I am pushing myself,
The water just push me back.

When can someone ever notice my sorrows, my depression.
When can someone be proud of my acheivements.
Am I really that good and camouflaging my emotions?

This is way too ridiculous. People showing me unhappy faces everyday like its a hell of a shit my fault?
I Always try to say something to make you all happy, I always show the more out going side of me despite of all the problems, stress I faced.
I just plead for you all to understand my character a little bit. Is it really that difficult? I always do things to suit their characters, why cant they just do the same to me.

I am not emo, I am damn furious!!

I would have seen the eclipse a hundred times before any motivational words come out. urgh

♥ I Believe in
Forever love